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THURRRCCCF

Fri, 14 Aug 2026 00:00:00 +0000

i let a tattoo artist do whatever he wants all over my left foot, and i don’t look until it’s done. I’m disappointed in the results because they’re not like his normal style. one of them says (in small caps) “… THE ABCS OF” (normal size) “THURRRCCCF”

Hot Mug

Wed, 12 Aug 2026 00:00:00 +0000

I wake up and R makes me coffee while I’m in bed, but it’s in a hot mug that’s difficult to hold

Sneak

Wed, 29 Jul 2026 00:00:00 +0000

walking uphill through the neighborhood to my grandparents’ old house, i find a shortcut down a gravel-paved hill. i successfully sneak in through the garage, planning to leave some food in their fridge. my uncle notices me, and i ask him to keep my presence secret

Metal

Fri, 17 Jul 2026 00:00:00 +0000

researching other roguelike games. someone is making an rl in an esoteric programming language. the game is called Metal.

Coetivy

Thu, 18 Jun 2026 00:00:00 +0000

I’m in my old room on Coetivy. R has gone completely berserk—she is digging through my room for evidence of sexual conspiracy or even just evidence of sexuality from me. she comes after me violently, intent to kill me. i run out and survey my surroundings. i find another copy of our house, with a big open square arch for a door, and a stone portal inside. it strikes me that this whole situation was simulated by whoever put me in this weird facade of my old neighborhood, relieved. i enter the portal and find myself in a similar but degraded environment, and the cycle continues, finding my house and entering a portal, until i find an opening in the house to a dark, blacklit, damp sort of building or cave with bright glowing blue and magenta scrawls on every surface, and little scrawled creatures inside. this place feels safer than the last, but unknown

Sear

Thu, 18 Jun 2026 00:00:00 +0000

I’m in an RV, or some kind of cabin. camping in this idyllic little clearing in the forest. someone reveals it’s much easier to get a nice sear on your food when you use a clothes iron

Garage

Thu, 18 Jun 2026 00:00:00 +0000

Parked somewhere, it’s night. I’m going back to my car in the parking lot. Apparently i parked it in this weird futuristic garage where the normal parking spots would be—it’s multi level, fitting multiple cars. i find the spot my car should be, but it’s a few levels up, so I press a button to lower it back down to me. first comes the car below it (but above me), a big red SUV. the floor opens beneath it, and it dips nose first and lands upside down, totaled. someone is obviously upset about this. i somehow get up to the level of my car, and i sit in the back seat, counter weighing it so that when it comes down it lands the right way

Kiln

Sun, 14 Jun 2026 00:00:00 +0000

walking through an apartment complex at night. stepdad is there. i find a place to sculpt little objects out of clay. i think i’m at a train station. it’s a cardboard box i’m sculpting in, inside another box. little heads with mouths agape i’m trying to keep from attaching to each other. a litter of kittens is in the box. i start to fire the clay as the box is a kiln, thinking all the animals have left it, but i hear them crying and try to take them all out and save them

Book of Riffs

Sat, 13 Jun 2026 00:00:00 +0000

dancing in my room. there’s a record on, an hours long medley of classic synth riffs. it’s being played by scanning this huge phonebook-thick book of colorful bars and text into RAM. there’s a number on it, 270. i accidentally skip to 500 something but then go back. the DJ explains the history and context of each riff. at one point she asks how long is left, but doesn’t like the answer. it’s very long

Warehouse

Sat, 13 Jun 2026 00:00:00 +0000

living in a huge empty city (post apocalypse?) is a girl and her father and dog. somewhere in east asia. they live in a dilapidated warehouse or factory full of mounds of fabric that look like fiberglass. every day they go out to find food and supplies. eventually her father doesn’t come back. she is a teenager now. she’s still waiting for him but thinks he probably is dead. he used to sing a lullaby for her at night. the quietness now keeps her awake.

White Ink

Wed, 10 Jun 2026 00:00:00 +0000

repeated visions of a puddle of white ink on carpet. a black slab floats in it, and as it wobbles in the liquid it is stained swirling patterns of white. in a dark bedroom, with a friend. we take something that makes the carpet glow slate blue. the white ink comes, and we get to see the process for real.

L's Birthday

Tue, 09 Jun 2026 00:00:00 +0000

I’m on a toy train running through a basketball court. L posts in the group chat that it’s his birthday. He’s just moved into this spacious, dark, two-level house. the lights are off. there are supposed to be several people living there, working from home, but even descending to the lower floor, he sees nobody. T suggests we browse this game review website to find a decent gift for him.

Sleep Ritual

Sat, 06 Jun 2026 00:00:00 +0000

i have to do different things in order and for different amounts of time to get sleep. it takes me forever to figure out what the right order is. i think it starts with eating…

Crawl

Thu, 04 Jun 2026 00:00:00 +0000

R and i play a PVP version of dungeon crawl stone soup. she ekes out a win by zooming really far into a pixel to see what spells i am going to cast. i’m pissed and vow to beat her next time

Puppy

Wed, 03 Jun 2026 00:00:00 +0000

R and I are back at the loft above her grandmother’s garage. We get a new puppy. He looks like Dennis when he was young, but his fur is a pale baby blue. R feeds him a diet of white dirt made of meat.

Beach Truck

Wed, 03 Jun 2026 00:00:00 +0000

at the beach, at night. I’m sitting at the last rocky outcrop of a series projecting out from the shoreline, when a huge monster truck drives out into the water, nearly running me over. i run to the back and see in the bed of the truck a scared woman. i try to help her out. there’s some beef with her boyfriend, i think we fight or something… don’t remember

Arena Shooter

Fri, 29 May 2026 00:00:00 +0000

I’m playing a multiplayer arena shooting game on a snowy, nighttime map set on a sideways incline and dotted with low walls of server racks. there are yellow-green canisters of explosives lying around. the goal is to get to a diagonal labyrinth of transporters and move on to the next stage. i shoot a few npcs who look like HL2 combine and a player who is a kid, right after he visibly gloats having tagged an npc himself.

Ukraine

Thu, 28 May 2026 00:00:00 +0000

R and I are outside, trying to get somewhere. it’s gloomy and overcast. our only path is through a wartorn city in Ukraine. we run through a series of dark warehouses populated sparsely with backpacked male individuals, usually sitting, silent, on their phones. they don’t seem to be in a rush or concerned about any immediate danger, but R and I are afraid of drone strikes, looking up to the sky when we exit into grey courtyards and parks. R runs ahead of me. i call out to her, scolding her to slow down, afraid to be left behind.

Duck Egg

Wed, 27 May 2026 00:00:00 +0000

one of our ducks laid a fertilized egg this morning—i assume one of the wild mallard drakes is responsible for this. out of curiosity i crack it open early, hatching a stillborn white ball with wings.

Haircuts

Tue, 26 May 2026 00:00:00 +0000

at N’s parents’ house with him and G. both of them have hilariously fucked haircuts—N’s is cut short and flat, like a cartoon, while G’s looks like Goku. they both get real offended when i bring up how badly they messed up their hair

Siberia

Mon, 25 May 2026 00:00:00 +0000

copying some data into a server. something feels important about it? I’m in a library, and the library is in space. I’m sending this data somewhere in siberia. there’s an element of competition or antagonism I’m missing… someone is trying to prevent me from doing this, a big mean guy

The Pitchers

Sun, 24 May 2026 00:00:00 +0000

at a baseball game. high up, back in the bleachers. our team is “the pitchers”, white and red. it’s dusk. screaming from the crowd. I’m in my apartment—great view of the game out the window. so great in fact some attendees look back and scowl at me with envy, for I’m able to see the game so clearly out my apartment window and without paying too. they’re playing the dodgers. more cheers from the crowd. I’m sad. the apartment feels lonely. R and i split? it’s not well furnished and it’s just me here. way high up, an upper floor. despite being so high up i can see the game as if i were much closer—this discrepancy does not cross my mind. along with the sadness there is a faint feeling of demonic presence.

Jeremy

Sat, 23 May 2026 00:00:00 +0000

fixing up my discord bot Jeremy. some users want to be able to date him. i visualize all possible options as a tree and consider what it would be like to date Jeremy.

Bad Dog

Fri, 22 May 2026 00:00:00 +0000

Dennis becomes totally vicious. downstairs at my grandparents’ old house. it’s dark down here, a golden light through the stairwell. R there with me. as he continues to bite and scratch me like a rabid cat—he’s latched on to my hand, i’m bleeding everywhere, he is fully cat now, looks like D’s cat—, I try to find a place to hide and argue with R over what to do.

Colosseum

Thu, 21 May 2026 00:00:00 +0000

seated at a cafe structured like a giant colosseum. i see my step dad there—he’s asking me something about programming. he asks how, in Rust, to handle complex state and combinatorial explosion when making art or games. i tell him that’s why i don’t use rust anymore and i use Lua instead which treats everything like an untyped hash map. my mom asks, “do you have to pay for the array?” for a second i don’t know how to respond and then i say “well that’s not really how it works, arrays are a built in feature of the language”

Hot Rock

Wed, 20 May 2026 00:00:00 +0000

out in a small fenced back yard. it’s sunny. I’m smacking a long rock with another rock until it’s red hot and malleable

Berlin

Tue, 19 May 2026 00:00:00 +0000

i descend via google maps to Berlin, a gridded city with low, domed concrete buildings. in an electronics shop, here to buy a cable. i want to know what jail is like here, so i consider stealing something, but i have cold feet. in a parking lot with S, it’s night. he says well just steal something. i try to respond but i can’t. he says choke it out already, or do you not have anything to say? i say cmon man i have a speech impediment

Possession

Mon, 18 May 2026 00:00:00 +0000

at grandparents’ old house. in my bed, alone. house-sitting for my dad and J. Naomi Watts as my mom(?). She’s giving me a lecture about drug(?) safety. there’s a video presentation. she’s in the bathroom. she’s in a mechanic’s jumpsuit. it looks like a possession. she is shaking violently, eyes closed. eventually she stops and opens her eyes, her irises a light golden color. she is frozen slack jawed standing in the bathroom, looking up vacantly at the ceiling. another older woman with black sclera and white irises stares out also vacantly, sitting on a toilet. a third old woman with white hair is sitting on a seat, shaking still, eyes closed. I’m there. i shout trying to snap them out of it, then run to my bed and hide under the covers.

Video Call

Sun, 17 May 2026 00:00:00 +0000

we’re all in a voice/video call — everyone is arguing about something i don’t remember. someone says “but that’s New Zealand, we are talking about Ireland”. B keeps offering me this fried snack and he insists it will fit my diet. “look I’ve been mowin on this thing for the better part of an hour and see how much there is left. it’s real filling”

Japan Conflict

Sat, 16 May 2026 00:00:00 +0000

in a massive geopolitical blunder i end up agreeing to join a naval attack against Japan despite already being part of a research team from America within their borders. the lead of that team called me up and was like WTF

Bridges

Mon, 11 May 2026 00:00:00 +0000

I’m on vacation in Canada. driving down a huge lattice of highway bridges, we are at the top. driving slowly. i see the person in front of us suddenly drop. the road ends. we get out of the car, still moving. my car falls off the edge, its wheels still moving (something weighing down the pedal?). people gasp and scream. the car bounces and bounces down this huge series of bridges. I’m only worried that my phone was in there—how will we get back home?

Shard

Fri, 08 May 2026 00:00:00 +0000

I’m at school, in class, with a crimson haired girl and M. it’s dark out. M has a beaker full of some unknown substance, it’s some kind of drug. he asks if i want to join him in superheating it after class. i decline. as i leave, walking to the giant staircase leading down to the entrance (it’s a huge room, the school feels like an airport), i hear that the beaker exploded. i see the crimson haired girl running down the stairs, so easy to spot among the crowd—i get the impression she joined in M’s experiment. i start to run after her, but a shard of glass gets stuck in my hand. my hand goes numb and i sit down.

nobody is around. I’m in a dark church, under a table or something. I’m yelling out for help—actually I’m just yelling “shard”. apparitions appear to enter and exit the place but i don’t really want their help. very scared

I’m at my grandparents’ old house. it’s the size of a warehouse, now, and the inside is more like an open garden. it’s messy. I’m still hurt. i see an entrance to papou’s office. it’s more a low-walled section of this giant open building. i go and sit in the corner. i look up and see a ladder to a raised wooden platform. i notice on it is a big “thin blue line” flag and feel confused and disappointed in my papou who was never like that. when I get close to inspect it i see that it’s actually a thin green line—the symbol co-opted by environmentalists, probably something he picked up at the jazz festival or something. I’m relieved.

i still have the shard in my arm, my elbow now. i see myself on TV. they’re saying it’s an embedded UFO infection, as the shard keeps flying around and generating more shards that burrow in my elbow. there is no known cure.

Directfratball Precipitation

Sat, 02 May 2026 00:00:00 +0000

skipping class. I’m wandering through hallways and classrooms. i encounter B, someone i know online—she wants me to fast with her, by which she means hang out while not eating—i took it to mean deep contemplation somewhere else, because she tries to get me into to a room full of kids doing their schoolwork. i imagine myself (looking much different than i really do, younger and with short hair, a dark face i don’t recognize) entering this room and it’s embarrassing, even though i know it would be fine. as B leaves i reject this and end up in a room alone, painted deep purple. she eventually finds and drags me back, through an ethereal white translucent plastic hallway, like something meant for biohazard containment, to the room she and a friend are in. it’s a bit messy but nice with big windows letting in the clear sunny sky. eventually she asks me something but uses a word i can’t understand—i keep asking her to repeat it, until finally she shows it to me, written down: directfratball precipitation, a term she got from one of my dreams.

Beach

Thu, 30 Apr 2026 00:00:00 +0000

I’m climbing down a cliff on the beach, looking for a suitable house to avoid zombies—eventually i find one in a patch of grass, near an apartment complex. i end up going back to the beach, but falling off a giant sand dune in front of a zombie with a satchel. i think I’m hurt as i run away

Hell Stairs

Thu, 30 Apr 2026 00:00:00 +0000

I’m in an empty house floating in a bright half cloudy sky, unhappy. I decide to become a student of God, something that requires a test of devotion by climbing an enormous staircase through hell, kept by scholars who test my knowledge

Backrooms

Thu, 30 Apr 2026 00:00:00 +0000

I’m running through a series of strange environments, them leading to new ones of my choosing as i find entrances—to test this i end up in the backrooms—but eventually i try to fit in a hole in the ground to see something new, and, because i couldn’t think of anything, i woke up

Driver

Tue, 28 Apr 2026 00:00:00 +0000

in the car with A and Q. I’m in the back seat. we just got done grocery shopping. they want to get me a job as a driver who works a night shift. we look around for suitable drivers to ask questions about their job. eventually we find a good looking car. it’s night. we follow it through the forest down a winding, treacherous road, which continues to get more and more dangerous. eventually we end up on a wooden structure built atop a huge lake, a giant labyrinth of shabby wooden road with ramps and loops and things over this expanse of dark turquoise water.

after driving up and around this structure for a while, we continue on foot. it feels like a video game with a top down camera. we walk around… eventually i end up back at N’s parents house. i had taken up residence in the den. i have the door closed. it’s a mess in here, clothes and stuff all over the ground. outside the door i hear my mom and stepdad. they sound disappointed in me.

Wedding

Fri, 24 Apr 2026 00:00:00 +0000

R and I are getting married. it’s a big ceremony in a church with lots of people, many of whom i don’t know. I’m unsure where to go—some women help me go not up the aisle but first up a flight of stairs that take me to the real aisle that the bridegroom is supposed to walk down. R is visibly happy, in a huge ornate dress pacing back and forth on the platform with her hand over her mouth, and i can barely keep myself from running down the aisle. when I get up on the platform, there is no priest or speech, just a kiss—but first i must kiss on the cheek a very tall and obese beautiful older black woman who sits to the side just on the edge of the platform. i never actually do end up kissing the bride

Creep

Tue, 21 Apr 2026 00:00:00 +0000

new episode of creep tapes set in a small generic well lit apartment where the victim both knows who the creep is and very obviously wants to be killed by him, not unlike the first episode of the second season

Dance

Mon, 20 Apr 2026 00:00:00 +0000

I’m dancing in a festival or convention in a little glade among firs with a crowd of men, women, and strange looking furry puppet people—coyotes or wolves. we dance in slow motion, people touching each other, many people naked. after the fact i start spending the weekend trying to recreate this experience. a package shows up to our door. I’m living in my grandparents’ old house. the package has in it a bunch of boxes with labels of parts and materials on the outside. the deliverer is wearing a lab coat and tries explaining everything to me. R comes out to handle it, she knows this is out of my wheelhouse.

Working For The Elves

Tue, 14 Apr 2026 00:00:00 +0000

spotty memory of this one. I’m in a sort of ominous parallel world. there’s a feeling of evil presence. a man explains he started working for the elves (demons?) as the planet revolves around them—he didn’t realize it’s a binary system. i keep driving past this house with a compulsion to enter the bathroom. there’s something really wrong feeling about all of this

Dorm

Fri, 10 Apr 2026 00:00:00 +0000

I’m in my grandparents’ old house, now a university dorm. my bed is in a different position tonight, next to one of my dorm-roommates’ beds. my roommate and i have a pleasant chat. then the landlord (or otherwise one of the staff) barges in, a vietnamese man with medium bleached hair dyed auburn and bad teeth. he reveals his evil plan was to get us to fall in love and have sex by putting our beds together. i tell him if he’s going to manipulate the students like that he probably shouldn’t tell them about it at least. later we’re all upstairs. there’s a booming noise in the hallway, and we go in to check the ceiling, where there was an object of interest

Hostage

Wed, 08 Apr 2026 00:00:00 +0000

I’m in my car. in the back seat is a boy and a crazed man with a gun. he’s telling me to drive home. i almost get in an accident looking back at him and trying to find the maps app on my phone. I’m driving through a rural area, knocking over fences. we end up near the convenience store, south of where i live. a woman is driving toward us, also on the grass. everyone exits their vehicles and the woman tries to get the boy to safety. the man starts shooting, i get in the car and drive away

How It Used To Be

Wed, 08 Apr 2026 00:00:00 +0000

I’m in bed with C, in his house. there’s someone else with us. we casually cuddle like queequeg and ishmael. he says, this is just like how it used to be isn’t it?

Lungs

Tue, 07 Apr 2026 00:00:00 +0000

I’m incapacitated—someone injects me with a poison that gradually prevents my lungs from working and I slowly but painlessly die

Loft

Sun, 05 Apr 2026 00:00:00 +0000

I am a kid. I’m in the dark loft of an airbnb, thinking about how fun the party will be. while my older siblings downstairs are talking with the owners of the house, I’m visited by a strange man. he unfolds a set of monitors showing conspiracy theory videos and aggressively forces me to watch them. i protest but he keeps convincing me to watch. he tells me i will have to play his game, which looks like the game 10 Beautiful Postcards. at one point i tell him something like “you are a pathetic bully, i am a middle schooler”. when i have the chance to pack my things and leave, the says, while playing the game, “i guess we’ll see whose baby it is then.” i don’t know what this means, exactly, but i know it will be what forces me to come back tomorrow

Grey Carpet

Fri, 03 Apr 2026 00:00:00 +0000

I’m a kid, we’re moving into a new house. the ceiling is a pyramid shape and super high. the house is barely enough to fit all of us, with a strange two level bed and little cut out of a room barely big enough to fit one person. it’s all grey carpet and it makes an eerie choiral drone.

Wristband

Mon, 30 Mar 2026 00:00:00 +0000

With these loose metal wristbands, you can make them fly if they catch the sun on the inner side and you wave your arm around. I find that it still works even if you draw the sun on the inner side, warped to cover the whole surface like a bad uv map

Mishy Mashy Woman

Mon, 30 Mar 2026 00:00:00 +0000

A dead relative who also happens to be Ursula K. Le Guin had gifted me something: my real name, a symbol i can see when i close my eyes, a warped and chipped rectangular shape that sings a song.

I’m in my car, parked outside my apartment. I have a big silver watch/gun that says “Ayn Rand never loved you” inside big letters than spell out my first and last name. as i try to exit my car i notice a woman trying to take stuff out of the box area with the back door open. i know her from internet memes, it’s the mishy mashy woman. I yell at her to stop, and she walks around to the open back passenger side door where I’m sitting and pulls a gun on me, forcing me back in. i notice the other two people around the car, one man and one woman. they’re laughing and getting in the car, trying to take things and take me somewhere. the mishy mashy woman is in the box area again, aiming the gun at me. i lunge at her and try to bite at her ear and she shoots. I’m not sure if she hit me.

Hill

Mon, 30 Mar 2026 00:00:00 +0000

I’m in a grassy field, in a memory. It’s grey and windy out. I’m younger and fitter and I can run really fast, so I do. someone who looks like T is with me—it might be Dennis in human form. I run up and down the hill and lie down in the grass and imagine that this could be where I die, even though it’s a place I’ve been my whole life. i wonder if it’s better to die at home or somewhere you’ve never been

Plant Thing

Thu, 26 Mar 2026 00:00:00 +0000

underground, can’t make any noise or it will attract monsters. A boy screams and a plant thing with an eye and a mouth engulfs his head. he stops screaming and the creature loses interest. it happens again. his rescuer’s arm is dismembered but he can’t make any noise. they both make it out alive

Daughter

Thu, 26 Mar 2026 00:00:00 +0000

I adopt a daughter, she’s maybe around 8. she plays magic the gathering on the playground with her friend as I watch. her friend’s dad is there too, and he looks kind of like me.

Journalist

Thu, 26 Mar 2026 00:00:00 +0000

at a woman’s house. it’s large and messy. she is really paranoid about privacy. i think she is a journalist? but also some kind of rebel figure against an authoritarian regime. we’re waiting for someone, a bald man to arrive. at some point we leave the house and her security field disables my phone’s connection. i think i try to call someone and it fails. outside is a courtyard sort of like my middle school. we come back.

Cavan

Wed, 25 Mar 2026 00:00:00 +0000

R and i have a lot of time to record ourselves having sex, but i can’t let my parents see.

driving a pickup, need to get home. it’s night and rainy. looks sort of like the area around the apartment but more like eugene. in the right lane but i need to make a left. in quickly merging and turning i end up in an alley i haven’t seen before. i race a boy on his bike to get a comic on the way. we both end up at a stand selling physical copies of WikiLeaks. we can’t decide who got there first. it’s a tie. among other things, i learn that “cavan” is the feminine form of “cavana”. seems backwards… i meet R outside a dark bookstore. I’m hesitant to go in, but she says they have a private room for us.

Hot Dogs

Thu, 19 Mar 2026 00:00:00 +0000

A row of old women and a row of young women, all naked, all Russian. in a room with solid color brown walls and floor, like a green screen. They stand in a grid. the young women repeatedly march in a rotation, as the old women vomit whole hot dogs into their mouths like baby birds.

Game Train

Sun, 15 Mar 2026 00:00:00 +0000

I’m getting off the game dev train. It’s graduation. I see my school mates. The train is on a platform in the sky on a cloud, after a long climb now. each stop comes faster. they’re all labeled with increasingly advanced game tech. I want to get off right before the 3d stop, itself right before “facial expressions”. i miss my stop and I’m forced to jump off

Rock Monster

Sun, 15 Mar 2026 00:00:00 +0000

I’m a weird little deformed creature with a big head and little body. in a foreign country, it’s dangerous. my taxi drops me off in the center of town. it’s evening. i wander around for a bit, and meet a girl creature. I’m distracted talking to her(?) and get bulldozed by a bigger, more deformed creature made of rock. she tells me about them and we walk around, looking for more things to do. now i know how to dodge them. when we see one, we bait it and get out of the way, letting it crash and hurt itself, repeating this a few times.

Shoes

Fri, 13 Mar 2026 00:00:00 +0000

I buy a new pair of sneakers at the Asian market and wear them on the bus to school. At class i sit in the back row. The lights are off and it looks like we are about to watch a presentation. someone makes fun of me for buying the same pair of shoes twice.

Uphill

Mon, 09 Mar 2026 00:00:00 +0000

R and Dennis and I are on a sacred uphill trail in a large clearing in the forest. We are following these large wooden structures that look like pylons with little areas inside to sit in a circle on log chairs. we walk through a pond with ducks. R tells me where I shouldn’t pee in the pond because it will attract flies. we walk up a giant wooden bleachers-like staircase structure.

Sinkhole

Sat, 14 Feb 2026 00:00:00 +0000

D kept falling and hitting his head. Eventually he fell off a ledge and hit his head on a log on a forested slope, rendering him unconscious. I try to follow him but the ground collapsed underneath us. We meet two other people under the ground who explain why they chose to be inside little pods/coffins. We are all crushed presumably to death

Scientology

Sun, 04 Jan 2026 00:00:00 +0000

We were at an indoor Scientologist theme park of sorts, very 90s. Verdict was that they were not terrible at designing rides and games. They had this “key” system where you’d earn these strange items by completing rides and learning scientology related lessons. they snuck these keys into real video games (one I remember was Myst) and they had their own little motif that played when you found one. they weren’t really keys but a sort of oblong red polyhedron with a golden wireframe shape extruding from the long end, like an abstract key already stuck in a lock.

One of the rides near the beginning (which to us was the end, as we went backward through the park) was the “gay straight bar”. it was like a caged carousel with a bar in the center. they had an advertisement playing, with shitty 90s advertisement hip hop, and it explained the ride. the song went “gay bar!” and the riders booed. then it went “straight bar!” and the riders cheered, followed by a repeating “gay bar straight bar gay bar straight bar …” as the ride sped up the bargoers all stood up and held hands. it struck me as unusually progressive for a 90s theme park ride to address such topics

Downtown

Sun, 16 Nov 2025 00:00:00 +0000

I’m downtown, and the military is here. a woman is doing bag checks on the side walk. I walk the other way. army men in tanks are driving down the street. there’s a staircase up to the market, I take it. one of them stop me and do a pat down. they ask to look in my mouth, and find some plastic shit I’m anxiously chewing on. this confounds them and they consider if I’m on drugs, but ultimately let me go.

Bag

Sun, 16 Nov 2025 00:00:00 +0000

we accidentally put a plastic bag full of food over Dennis’ nose and mouth and leave it there for hours. he seems fine, but when I take it off he telepathically communicates to me that it was the most painful thing he has ever experienced

Ducklings

Thu, 13 Nov 2025 00:00:00 +0000

It’s a really cold night so I go out to check on the ducklings. They have blankets on top of their brooder plates and for some reason multi colored fairy lights are all around their enclosure. I notice one of the brooder plates fell off after Betty shows me and quacks.

Redwoods

Fri, 05 Sep 2025 00:00:00 +0000

We’re in Northern California, at the redwoods. I’m with my friend who is a Japanese salaryman on vacation. We’re on a dirt road surrounded by massive beautiful sequoias. Nearby is the largest monster truck ramp in the world. My friend suggests we jump it, but I think we should start with a smaller ramp.

At a hardware store. It’s just me and my friend. I see something that interests me, a sort of bent glass tube behind a display case, and I press the button to summon an employee. An older man walks over in a dirty grey shirt, baseball cap and denim shorts. he asks if I want the item, but I changed my mind and say I only accidentally pressed the button. as I walk away, my friend presses it too. the employee walks to him, and his head twists all the way around, and a different face on the back of his head talks to him in japanese. I look to a hallway and see another person has entered, an overweight woman dressed like an Egyptian pharaoh. her fingers are bent in an impossible shape, like the claws of a bird or the body of a spider, but perfectly round such that they could cradle an apple in their resting position. I get the impression these people are human mascots.

Barn

Tue, 13 May 2025 00:00:00 +0000

I’m in a barn… it’s dark. all I remember about this part.

I’m in a car as a passenger, on the highway. in front of me is another car, and a famous actor is getting it on with a woman in the back seat. the person I’m with sees this and is consumed by jealousy, as she thought they had something special.

I sat down to watch an old movie from my childhood (something like the wizard of oz though I don’t think it was that, nor any real movie) and the moment it started playing I began weeping and couldn’t stop, I was so moved by nostalgia.

Colony

Tue, 22 Apr 2025 00:00:00 +0000

Can’t leave shelter because there’s a giant insect bird that will swoop down and eviscerate us. A colony of these insects has a parasitic relationship with its own queen.

Bathroom Stall

Mon, 07 Apr 2025 00:00:00 +0000

There’s only one bathroom on this gigantic train, with only one stall. when it’s my turn, people are upset I am taking so long to pee. blood comes out, I try to ignore it.

Shooting Star

Mon, 07 Apr 2025 00:00:00 +0000

A shooting star outside my hotel, it’s so close I can hear it sizzle in the air and it crashes nearby in the forest. I take my phone and start to record its landing spot. it’s glowing faintly red. I hear screams and explosions and look up, still recording, to see dozens more shooting stars colliding into each other and raining down chunks of rock. I see another giant Earth in the sky. I run back into the hotel and the staff are ushering people somewhere. a man is crying and threatening suicide.

Footsteps

Thu, 03 Apr 2025 00:00:00 +0000

I’m in a spacious, plain looking building like a school or a hospital. I’ve got my field mic and I’m recording my own footsteps. I noticed some orchestral music was interfering with the recording, but I couldn’t find the source. I end up in a concert hall with the seats like bleachers in how steeply they ascend, nobody is in them. the whole concert hall is empty but the music is quite loud, and I’m trying to find the source. I walk up the stairs and I find at the top of them a door to another completely full concert hall where the orchestra is playing very loud.

VW Beetle

Sun, 30 Mar 2025 00:00:00 +0000

Traded in my car for a pink VW beetle installed with a red haired hologram anime girl. The whole process was annoying (I had to drive a bunch between cities) but I did finally end up driving it to dari mart on friendly street.

Fighter Jet

Sun, 16 Mar 2025 00:00:00 +0000

D is my therapist. he wanted to facetime me but I don’t have an iPhone. we call while playing a fighter jet dogfighting game. I can hear A yelling at a game in the distant background

Diner

Fri, 14 Mar 2025 00:00:00 +0000

watching the matrix on DVD. I get in trouble with the mob over a giant, expensive hash map, after B(?) introduces me to the boss. we confront him in the parking lot of a diner.

Devil

Tue, 11 Mar 2025 00:00:00 +0000

a dream about demonic possession and the devil, who looked an awful lot like joaquin phoenix as the joker

Dead End

Sat, 08 Mar 2025 00:00:00 +0000

accidentally drove my car onto an elevated train track in Philadelphia. it ends up in a dead end on the tracks, in the middle of the city, safe from being hit, but impossible to get back in and drive out. it faces a ramp that leads into a big body of water. the train goes right over it. we try to cooperate with the city to get it back out, but nothing seems to work. eventually we try a plan where N and I disguise ourselves as clowns and do a comedy routine to distract the passengers. we stall the train above the car, I exit and throw it off the tracks onto the concrete. everyone celebrates.

Garco

Fri, 28 Feb 2025 00:00:00 +0000

N(?) and i are escaping from revolution-era army men wielding rifles with giant bayonets. we enter a warmly lit cave and there is a wall of climbable blocks with letters on them. one of the rows of blocks spells out “GARCO”. as i start climbing, N is impaled by a bayonet through his back and out his chest, and he dies.

Cubes

Fri, 21 Feb 2025 00:00:00 +0000

weird little cubes on the inside of a woman’s closed eyelids fly outward, stretching her eyelids like a cartoon

Chaperone

Thu, 20 Feb 2025 00:00:00 +0000

in a plane on a school trip. our chaperone is power tripping and loudly, aggressively going over all his rules for the trip. we are at the mall/airport when I get sick of it and tell him to shut up we are all trying to study

Dog Trail

Tue, 18 Feb 2025 00:00:00 +0000

on a walk with dennis. I let him roam around the trail off leash. I decided to get on the bus and then meet up with him further along the trail, but I get distracted and a bunch of things go wrong. eventually I decide R probably found him and took him home. I bus home, and when I get there, a bunch of other white dogs are there but not dennis. these dogs belong to R’s dad who is visiting. I panic and run back outside leaving all the doors open. I begin yelling his name and other people do too, the whole neighborhood wants to find him. there are lots of other dogs being walked today. eventually I see him being walked around by someone else. Dennis is wearing a t shirt. I get the attention of the person who has him and I take him back home

Ice Cream

Tue, 18 Feb 2025 00:00:00 +0000

on the bus. then I’m at yia-yia’s house from my childhood. everyone is speaking in German. i execute a scheme to get everyone to leave using spicy food. yia-yia offers me ice cream. I’m touched.

Fight

Thu, 13 Feb 2025 00:00:00 +0000

I’m at the train station. for reasons I don’t remember I get into a fist fight with one of the people there. I beat him in front of his baby brother

Giants

Wed, 12 Feb 2025 00:00:00 +0000

giant animatronic animals roam the forest trails, most notably and dangerously the giant cymbal banging monkey. if they see you they will try to eat you, running through everything in their path, even rewriting history to get rid of anything in their way, even the trees. I find myself on the property of a slave owner’s ranch. it looks like he’s made a bad deal with someone, and now people have shown up to shoot and kill him.

6,000,000,000,000

Tue, 11 Feb 2025 00:00:00 +0000

I’m at the theatre, watching the new breaking bad reboot movie with adam driver. later I’m at S’s house. he asks me about the movie, and I say that it was boring, and I preferred the new aqua teen episode they showed which was really overwhelmingly, paralyzingly funny. I drop two arrowhead shaped pixels on the ground, and have a hard time picking them up; I keep pricking my fingers on them. S suggests we cut them in half with scissors, as they make a cool looking CD effect on the inside. S asks if he can log into my Xbox controller. I tell him the password is 6,000,000,000,000.

Train

Sun, 09 Feb 2025 00:00:00 +0000

security camera footage of a young woman hopping near the train tracks. she gets too close and is hit by the train. her left leg is separated from her body at the hip, spasming, and she screams. I learn that she died in this accident from a comment on the internet.

Tomato

Thu, 06 Feb 2025 00:00:00 +0000

patching my game… computerized dream world… involves a tomato and a glove… dream entrance ritual… nice man and woman there helping.... theme park ride through the mall, palm trees

Cover

Wed, 05 Feb 2025 00:00:00 +0000

I am commissioned to do the cover art for Yoshi’s Island. the result is a sea of eggs, with baby Mario sitting in the center slightly off to the right looking a little confused and staring at the viewer.

Train Station

Tue, 04 Feb 2025 00:00:00 +0000

walking up the concrete steps to the train station. later, I’m doing a long trek through the desert in eastern Oregon between two forested landmarks, walking alongside the highway. I collapse on the ground. everyone is wondering what’s wrong and then C notices all my organs have fallen out, and some of them are coming out of my mouth. she calls 911.

walking up the steps at the train station, slowly. my body has been put back together but I’m unrecognizable. I look like they only haphazardly put my skin back on. I feel like the worst version of RoboCop. I have no mouth anymore, and my hands are little plastic toys that can make a finger gun gesture. my mouth protects my organs, so I need to protect my mouth. I walk by a woman in a similar condition. I make finger guns at her. as I walk the reality of my situation sets in, and it makes me very sad.

Brothers

Mon, 03 Feb 2025 00:00:00 +0000

it’s revealed I had two brothers who were given up for adoption at birth. one of them was named David Larry and the other was named David B. G.. I also learn of a third brother who died. this info is all shown to me on a paper document. upon learning about the last one I cried and my dad could not console me.

Robotron

Sun, 02 Feb 2025 00:00:00 +0000

Something related to school and Robotron 2084… don’t remember much. I recall having trouble answering a question and being made fun of for it.

Lights

Sat, 01 Feb 2025 00:00:00 +0000

we’re in someone’s old mansion. I notice how some of the lights glow blue or green, but never red, even as you turn the color dial. the other lights glow orange like sodium lights. I’m unsatisfied there are no lights that can be set to any color.

West Illinois

Sat, 01 Feb 2025 00:00:00 +0000

we’re watching an 1800s period movie in class set near West Illinois, a small US-owned territory near Panama, and there’s a battle scene where one side uses giant rolling and sliding rocks. I notice the sliding rocks have an unusual inertia, they don’t seem to slow down. later in climbing/parkour gym class I ask how this is possible and nobody can give me an answer, not even the smart kid. everyone just accepts this as a natural property of large rocks.

when I’m at the airport, still nobody can answer, but it’s cool to see how they build the planes around the pilot seats right before boarding. the airport looks like a giant spacious warehouse, with escalators here and there to get to different floors.

Shopping Cart

Fri, 31 Jan 2025 00:00:00 +0000

I’m pushing a shopping cart the wrong way through marked pathways in a mall, even going down the up escalators (the flat kind) and vice versa. mechanics are talking about their cars in the background.

Stick Figure

Wed, 29 Jan 2025 00:00:00 +0000

G and I enter room #1 in the attic. the first one with a stick figure. it’s arranged like a living room. then we continue into room #2, with another stick figure. the light is off, it’s like a garage, with a short step down to the concrete floor. I’m very scared to enter it. G leaves out the back door, but I stay in room #2 with the stick figure. it’s posed like it’s sitting. from outside the door G makes fun of me, suggests I’m in love with it or that I’m sexually attracted to it. I return to room #1. R is in there, and she has to leave. she comes back in. she can’t see me because of copyright law, so we play a game of hide and seek. I see her slowly walking around the room trying to find me. her eyes dart around exaggeratedly and it disturbs me. she can’t see me at all, even with her eyes open.

Dragon

Tue, 28 Jan 2025 00:00:00 +0000

on a sail boat, we encounter a dragon from the white dragon clan (though he is light red). we strike a deal with him, and he agrees to help us on our vacation by having thousands of tiny dragons gather in the form of a translucent, bouncy VW beetle. we use it to drive to the beach

Space Coaster

Sun, 26 Jan 2025 00:00:00 +0000

Beavis and Butthead get on a roller coaster that takes them to space. I’m Beavis. the way we get off the spacecraft onto earth is a long orange extendable tube that you have to climb down. I get on it wrong and hit my head on the ground and everyone laughs.

For+

Sat, 25 Jan 2025 00:00:00 +0000

some kind of rollercoaster through a cave. R wants to take a trip to Mexico. later I’m programming with for+ loops. I’m unsure what the + does then I notice it increments the first element in whatever youre iterating. well that’s useless.

Six Wheeler

Sat, 25 Jan 2025 00:00:00 +0000

hanging out with E and other friends. she asks why all her exes have been rich. I ask if she is poor. she says no. I say that’s why. my head is in her lap. her friend shows up in a giant armored six wheeled vehicle. we load all our stuff into it and drive around town. this guy is awful at driving and keeps running into things, destroying property. we’re pulled over by a cop and interrogated on the spot

Magic Horse

Fri, 24 Jan 2025 00:00:00 +0000

I’m making a game where when you close your eyes you see (in monochrome, wide angle lens) through the eyes of your magic horse.

Hotel

Thu, 23 Jan 2025 00:00:00 +0000

at a hotel with B. eating at a diner booth table with him and his mom. I’m counting blocks of table on either side to make sure it’s properly asymmetrical. his mom is asked about the beds, it’s confusing and we lose the opportunity once we realize they are asking if we want to switch them out.

Egg

Tue, 21 Jan 2025 00:00:00 +0000

I am a child or multiple children. the children don’t want to play the game where everyone wears these unsettling ceramic masks. mine looks somewhere in between a wailing ape and a gas mask. it’s red with flesh colored ridges, thick and polished. we’re in a dark place. feels like a game of tag but worse. there’s a giant floating ovoid object that feels foreboding and erotic. everything fades away except this shape. it is awful and beautiful. pink with circular inlets of white. white text on it, alien script. looks like a giant keychain ornament, soft but not smooth, like silicone. I want to take it. I think I take it.